Nina's Blogged Life
Just some things from a college student finding her way in the world, one web update at a time. Hope you find yourself non easily offended because I can get offensive sometimes. I'll try to keep it down, but that's what it is and that's that.
Friday, June 29, 2012
Why I'll Vote Obama
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Experiencing a Moment
It's not that I've never noticed this before. I notice it all the time, but somehow today, it seems worth talking about. Maybe it's because I've had so many experiences today that I've generally been truly grateful for.
I've gotten to go and see a great person and share my stories. I've gotten retweeted by someone I care about their opinions. I've gotten to see one of the nicest and cleanest roadside stops on probably this face of the planet. These are all really kind of instant things but they've all built from little things in me. They've all built up from a string of incidents in my life.
The stories are something I'm proud of, but I don't want to share them with my family. I think I'm scared of their judgment because I like them. This is my talent and I like it too. I mean there are these two things that I want so much for people to like and it's just hard blending those two things together.
Getting to share those stories with soemone who cared, it might be something to take the chance on. Maybe I should just email them to her and get her opinion. I don't know how they are right now and who knows maybe she has some inspiring piece of story to help me along in my career.
With the idea that I've got someone who I like replying to me on twitter, I've liked a lot of things. I like people. I like things. And I've gotten into a crazy world that I adore. And I've met people I adore through it. So when someone new and good comes into this circle, it's great. As an actor, he's wonderful and seeing him vlog was just something amazing, it's a little piece of what I like in people.
And I feel I need to tell people that I care. I love people. They need to know that their work is flourishing and the idea that comment made an impact makes me smile. I've never wanted anything in my life other than to make comments that matter and/or touch people in a personal way.
That cleanest rest stop, well, let's just say i've seen walmarts smaller than it. It's a place where people are connected by this crazy idea that they're all going somewhere. They are all meeting family or friends or going to a new place and it's all just everyone is connected by this strange happiness. It's happiness is reflected in it's ability to defy all expectations of rest stops and be bright and shiny.
Maybe we've all been exactly where I am now. Maybe we haven't. All I know is that life is crazy and complicated and beautiful in ways that I've never expected and that makes it fun. Life is always worth living, even if someone tells you otherwise. Maybe especially then. Enjoy the experience and the ride because it's all crazy but no one gets to make your artwork. You have that job. Make it what you want to be. And mine, well it's bright colors and wonderful pattern.
Love Ya,
Nina x
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Another Book Finished!
Honestly, it actually reminds me of what I liked so much about Brave New World even though everyone around me hated it. I liked it because I knew things were bad and I was getting this glimpse into life that they didn't see. This is what could have been. People are complacent with the way things are and that is a terrifying future. It just holds so much illusion that this world is prettier than it is for people.
So on that note, I'm really glad I get to put it in the read book list. I think now, I'm going to read pride and prejudice, along with probably the Hunger Games again. I really want to reread that book because this was just moving and I know that the two books couldn't be farther apart but I'm so into the dystopia right now, it's a little bit crazy. Only two books away from completing another resolution of mine. This is insane. I've never finished one resolution, let alone two. This is a happy and spirited time for me and I hope that all of you are having just as good of a time as I am.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Novel Excerpt: Novel As of Yet Untitled
Friday, June 8, 2012
Thoughts on Resolutions
It's me again. I know, I haven't been keeping very good track of what I'm doing and I'm genuinely sorry for that. Now, I will try to update you guys at least once a week with the various comings and goings of my week.
I've realized very recently...like today recently, that I'm very nearly done with my new year's resolutions. I had three very specific ones and they're all very close to me. I wanted to read more, so I set myself the challenge of 15 books for the year. That way I wouldn't be too burdened during the school months and stress myself out more but I was actively seeking books to read and finding myself in a good place. I think I'm about three off that score. I'm about a fourth of the way through another book and have a couple rereads that I want to go through. So all in all, that should be done by the time I go back into school in the fall.
The next goal I set for myself is to write a novel this year. Well, that looks like it is rapidly approaching completion because I've started Camp NaNoWriMo. I'm now about 42K words into the whole thing and about 21K into my actual NaNoWriMo part of that. Which means I'm about half way done with nano part. This makes me super excited because seriously, it took me the first twenty years of my life to write a full length novel and now I've almost written two of them. That's a freaking craziness. By the time I reach twenty one, I could have written almost three novels. That just totally blows my mind away. It makes me so proud.
The other one I haven't really done is getting through all of the vlogbrothers videos and make Nerdfighter Challenge videos on it. Even then, I got through the first year which was probably a very good chunk of them. About 200 or so videos. So I'm pretty happy about all that.
The thing about all of these things is that I would have never gotten them done any other year. I never would have had the willpower. Being in college made me different yes, but more than that, meeting these people, these internet people, who inspire me everyday to do better has helped me so much. It makes me want to be a better person. It makes me want to achieve my dreams. And I'm so proud of that. People give the internet a pretty bad kind of name, but I love it so much. I love the people I get to see everyday because of this great technology.
So since it's June and it's the halfway point in the year, how do you think you are doing on your new year's resolutions? any outstanding progress? if so, what's it attributed to? and if not, why do you think that is? I mean it's a marathon, that's true but sometimes it feels so good just to get that sprint out of the way, that you don't know what it was like just going so slowly. You want to feel that floating sensation everyday.
DFTBA darlings,
Nina x
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
It's Been Awhile
For those of you who are not nerdfighters, that means I came down with a cold. What happened was kind of like this. Day one: Bad Headaches. Day Two: Bad headaches and appetite kind of out of wonk. Day Three: Snot and Crap. Day Four: Oh my god, please let me die, because this is just horrible. So yeah, I have been sick now for about a week and things are finally starting to turn up. There's no headaches. Finally, there's starting to be less snot and stuff, but the chickens seem to be evacuating my nasal cavity so that is all good.
The other things are that I like to be extremely loud when I type so on Sunday on the worst of me being sick, we (meaning me, my three younger siblings, and our five dogs) were relegated to the upstairs and had to be super effing quiet because my mother was filming in our downstairs which was more or less a nightmare for me. So typing was basically, in my room, trying to be as quiet as I possibly could while being sick and kind of just hating life in general.
On monday, I went to go babysit some kids and just didn't think to blog. Probably wouldn't have been that interesting anyway.
But I have also finished another book to add to the Books I've read collection page, so I'm glad to have done that. I read Maureen Johnson's "13 Little Blue Envelopes" and it was FANTASTIC. It was an easy read. I started it on Monday and finished it today but I really only read in chunks of like one or two hours. So that was nice. It was really super quick and something I would recommend to a few people. Because it was like being on an adventure without having to pay for it.
Oh, I've also written words. I don't know if I told you last time how many words I was at, but currently I'm at 18K, almost 19K and so it's going along smoothly. Once I finish it, I will tell you what it's about but the crazy thing about my brain is that I don't like to tell anyone. I keep the goal inside or else I'll never do it. And so I thank you guys for your patience, but it's gonna be here I promise.
Video blogging is a thing I should get back to. I haven't done it in awhile and that's something I want to do again. I wasn't going to do it while I was sick and there was a couple of other things that were just affecting a lot of stuff. But I'm back on being on the road to completing things. Hopefully, you'll see me soon.
DFTBA Darlings,
Nina x
Monday, May 21, 2012
Finished the Book!
And I mean this could be construed as I'm a pro-life stance in politics, but no. Sorry to those you who think I think that. I'm pro-choice. I would rather you get rid of your child before it experiences any pain or suffering if you are not ready in any way. But no, the killing of an innocent upsets because they don't know what they did or why they are dying. They don't know how to come to that conclusion and it's really just something that's emotionally stressful. Like if [enter serial crime drama here], the killer kills the dog or cat before taking out the human or I see that. I cannot watch that episode. Like the worst thing a killer could do to me is hurt my pets and hurt my animals because they are innocent.
And I mean like I can get behind some pretty gruesome murders when it comes to adults because I can sort of kind of justify that they did something or knew something that changed their life forever and they got to experience most of what life had to offer. They also knew what the world was like. They knew the world was a bitch and cold an indifferent. You could murder a whole bus full of adults and it still wouldn't have the same emotional impact on me than killing one dog or cat or one child. It just wouldn't.
But yes, other than that small detail which turned into a very long talk, I think it was a good book. I liked it a lot. I enjoyed reading. It was broken up into chunks big enough to be interesting and short enough to be manageable from day to day things. I mean the pacing could have picked up. I think that was one of the issues of why I had picked up this book so many times and failed to finish all the way through until today. The characters also could have had a little more interaction or made me care about them a little more. I just for most of the character I didn't care if they lived or died which presented kind of a moral dilemna with some characters because you're supposed to care and you're supposed to have these big moments about their death when you don't care enough about it.
But yeah, overall a good book. I think that I would recommend it to a few people, but definitely not most people. Just because it takes a while to get into it and for most people that just won't work.