Quote Analysis: "To live is to act and much good is done"

I have this saying on my Skype message "To live is to act and much good is done" to most it doesn't mean anything.   I'm an actor, of course I would put this little saying I thought up on my Skype, but it becomes interesting when you think about what acting really is.  

Acting is not just performed on stage or screen by pretty people.   We all act everyday.   We don't show our full selves to everyone.   There are times when we bite our tongue to save our jobs.   This is all acting and it's something that everyone does.   Even I, who try my damnedest to be honest, maybe to the point of brutality, doing this in my normal life.

So literally it is what it means, to live, to breathe is to sometimes to put on a damn good [or bad] show.   And it's something that I don't take very lightly.   We all have that in us.  We're all actors.  We're all leads in our personal movies and some people treat themselves like an extra.   They don't even treat themselves as a supporting actor in their own film.   They label themselves in the massive sea of faces.  And we are all special whether people want to tell us that or not.   I'm saying it, you, yes you who is reading this, you are special.  

So we've gone over the point in the quote "to live is to act...," and that would seem to be simple enough, but there is a second part to my quote.   "...and much good is done,"  it might not surprise you that I'm an optimist, but this doesn't refer to my personal belief.   It refers to the first part of the quote.   When we act, we are thinking of others feelings.  Either not hurting feelings of those that are in charge or close to us or we do something nice for someone and we don't want them to know.   Much good refers to what we put out into the world by keeping some things private and maybe telling lies to tell the truth. And it's done everyday.   It's done without thought and often times it couldn't be better said that we love it.

So to live is to privatize our live, to tell certain people lies so that they see certain truths about something or someone and by doing that we bring much happiness to ourselves and other people.   No one notices that it's wrong to act and that's because it's not.  living is acting and we all have our screen or our stage and we all have the audience we play into.  People see what they want and that is the good done in the world.   It's hopeful, but it's also complicated to live this life.  That's what's so fun about it though.  How dull would life be if everyone in my life knew everything about me?

Judgment

It doesn't matter how many times someone says that they liked what you did, if they don't pick you it's always a little bit heartbreaking.  

And yes, I speak from experience.  many many many times.   The reason that it's relevant right now is I entered this contest to potentially go to a convention that could quite possibly change my life.   There were about 70 contestants including myself, and I didn't get into the top ten.   Now, I know that's not something I should bummed about but I am.

I won't stop making videos, but it's really hard to be judged and not be good enough to be on someone's top list.  Especially when no matter how irrational or unjustified it is, you felt like you were better than some of the people who got into the top ten.   Still, I'm glad my friend got in to that top ten and I'm glad that she'll have that chance.   Because she's freaking awesome.   It would have been a little less awesome to compete against her.

Seriously, I'm glad I didn't have to.  I'd never have won that way.   She definitely deserves that.   Still, keep being awesome, because I love you guys soo much.

A Day, Understood

So yesterday was really good and then it was a clusterfuck.   Now, I'm going to start with the bad news because I believe that I should leave this with a good taste in my mouth and I'm pretty sure you guys don't want to remember me being a downer, because I know how this works. 

Bad news was our power went off for several hours.   Gah, like seriously.   No Beuno at all.   It's not easy to relax when there's absolutely nothing going on.   Also the video that I started to post apparently shut off the the visual part of the video about a third of the way into it.   Just was not good.  There was some other stuff, but that's for another day.    Still, those were the two main points of the badness.  Did not like it one bit as you might imagine.

The good news is though that the video I was trying to record, I was recording it on my new camera.  Now I don't have to webcam videos anymore and I'm not strictly limited to inside the house now.  Yay!   That's always fun.   In a couple of days, I will be anxiously posting another video in which I pimp out for votes.   I would really like to go to Vidcon especially now that I have my awesome camera.  But there was also Hagen Daans Ice Cream last night which was delicious.    And I read two chapters out of Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.

So everything was about even.   All in all, not a fantastic day, but not a horrible one where everything went wrong.   And I even got the video fixed.    And we got the power back as is obvious because I'm writing a blog post about, but whatever.    You know, I still couldn't live on a desert island because I could leave my modern comforts.