Okay, so I'm going to make this one kind of quick, not that I don't love the blog, it's just that I've got like four other things to do and right now, I don't really have anything interesting to say.
Basically, I wrote my paper which I need to get from my paper and I need to go get a shower and do the picture for today, and that will take some incredible time. So for these reasons, I think I will impart on you, at least for now at this very juncture, a quote from a great person on twitter.
"You came from a woman, so you have no right to disrespect one." -- AyyLucky
Now, I will tell you that this quote is incredible because it came from a dude. I mean I love dudes. I find them hilarious, but seriously? That's freaking amazing. And it wasn't a retweet, that was all him and just it blows my mind whenever people do something like this, that restores a little faith in humanity. Because there are people out there who know what's right and will keep fighting for it, even if it's not going to benefit them in any way!
Showing posts with label miracles. Show all posts
Showing posts with label miracles. Show all posts
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Beda: Day 7: It's been a week.
It's been a week and what a week it has been. I've talked about a lot of things on this blog, but not really how well the blog is going. So I guess that's what I'll talk about today because that just seems kind of chill and whatnot. And I'm always down for chill. I hope you guys are too. But since I can't see you and this is my blog, guess what? Going on with it anyway.
One of the things I've noticed is that I've done these pretty much all late at night, making sure I have something interesting to say to you guys. I mean I think I may have put my Team Youtube one up a little bit earlier, but not much. It was still evening when that one went up if it went up earlier than the night because that's how I roll. I mean I just want to make sure that I capture everything for you guys and this is something that I strive to do. So I want to make it as good as possible. But that also means a lot of other things.
Like the potential that I could forget one of these and then lose my challenges, which I don't think so. Not going to happen. So yeah, next week my challenge is to get at least two blogs up earlier than evening no later than Day 14. Maybe we'll make that a habit. These little challenges keep me motivated to do better and to find more time to write and stuff in my daily life. Because I'm here for you guys but I'm also here for me. And what I need is to find some greater confidence about these blogs.
I know not many people, if any people at all read my blogs. They would much rather watch me on the vlogs, but still this is who I am. I want to do this so that maybe someone stumbles across this blog and for one second I make their life better. If that happens, I will have done my job. So anything to keep it new and fresh and entertaining because entertaining is a whole new ball game for me but something I want to enjoy.
These have been fairly long though and that's something I'm proud of. I'm writing because I want to write and that's who I am. Not because I just thought it would be fun to do a challenge. No, I really did want to challenge myself and make new content across several fields that weren't getting as much content. And it's a full job running all of these things but I'm glad I'm doing it. I'm glad I'm having a good time and doing as much as I can.
Ulitmately, I'm feeling strong about how little time it takes if you just plan some stuff out and have the confidence to go through with it. I never thought I would be doing a week's worth of vlogs consecutively but here I am. I'm growing stronger. And I hope to keep it going for the next three weeks and three days.
One of the things I've noticed is that I've done these pretty much all late at night, making sure I have something interesting to say to you guys. I mean I think I may have put my Team Youtube one up a little bit earlier, but not much. It was still evening when that one went up if it went up earlier than the night because that's how I roll. I mean I just want to make sure that I capture everything for you guys and this is something that I strive to do. So I want to make it as good as possible. But that also means a lot of other things.
Like the potential that I could forget one of these and then lose my challenges, which I don't think so. Not going to happen. So yeah, next week my challenge is to get at least two blogs up earlier than evening no later than Day 14. Maybe we'll make that a habit. These little challenges keep me motivated to do better and to find more time to write and stuff in my daily life. Because I'm here for you guys but I'm also here for me. And what I need is to find some greater confidence about these blogs.
I know not many people, if any people at all read my blogs. They would much rather watch me on the vlogs, but still this is who I am. I want to do this so that maybe someone stumbles across this blog and for one second I make their life better. If that happens, I will have done my job. So anything to keep it new and fresh and entertaining because entertaining is a whole new ball game for me but something I want to enjoy.
These have been fairly long though and that's something I'm proud of. I'm writing because I want to write and that's who I am. Not because I just thought it would be fun to do a challenge. No, I really did want to challenge myself and make new content across several fields that weren't getting as much content. And it's a full job running all of these things but I'm glad I'm doing it. I'm glad I'm having a good time and doing as much as I can.
Ulitmately, I'm feeling strong about how little time it takes if you just plan some stuff out and have the confidence to go through with it. I never thought I would be doing a week's worth of vlogs consecutively but here I am. I'm growing stronger. And I hope to keep it going for the next three weeks and three days.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Identity and life lessons
So I've been thinking a lot about identity lately and it got me to thinking who am I? I mean I know all of the physical attributes that make me who I am, but who am I really? At my very core? I think this in large part has to do with two major books that I've been reading. One is called Inside Joss's Dollhouse: From Alpha to Rossum edited by Jane Espenson and John Green's touching novel, The Fault in Our Stars. Now normally these books wouldn't really have anything to do with each other, but in my case they did.
I took TFiOS really hard. Like punch in the stomach so hard that my lungs filled with air and were reminded that they liked the taste of air hard. And I can tell you, just like I told you in my reviews of TFiOS previously have stated because it made me think about my young life. How I've been blessed with the kind of miracle that some people never get, but indeed is a miracle that increased the number of my days, I just don't know to what capacity. It gave me a few more infinities. Now, how you deal with yourself and your life as a sick person and maybe especially as a sick child is important. Having epilepsy was certainly a strain on some of my childhood but it definitely wasn't the only thing that kept me in the hospital. And as someone who has had continual miracles with the ideals of modern medicine, it's so easy to imagine it going the other way.
I often get up thinking about how it could have gone the other way. I like being alive and I like wondering about my identity and often even crazier things than that, but let's face it, I've had a lot of miracles. To count just some of the many miracles, I survived childhood epilepsy, two cases of pneumonia in the third grade alone, and had my tonsils taken out when I was three or so because they were enlarged to the size of an eighteen year old male's. Those are just a few of my miracles. I mean where would I be if I didn't have the choices I have now? I mean I have to stay away from strobe lights because they make me dizzy and stuff and in general make the rest of me go funny. I also know something else could happen. I haven't had one in a really long time, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of dying and reading has made me confront that.
And then there's the mental part which I was confronted with in Inside Joss's Dollhouse. I am one person. I have one body and in general one disposition at any given point. This is true enough. The question I ask myself though, because I often muse on it about other people is, am I many personalities? Now, I want to clarify, I have no issue with people with any kind of mental disorder, but I am not talking about one. I am not talking about multiple personalities. I am talking about many personalities. And often times when I ask this about myself the answer is simple, yes. But it's not that simple. Because if it were that simple, then it wouldn't be interesting and we all know the yes/no question is kind of a boring one. I often ask myself what these personalities are and who they bear to and how long I've had each and why I came up with them in the first place. These are all very interesting questions. And I bet many of you have kind of thought about this too. I am a daughter, a student, a tutor, a friend, a vlogger, a blogger, a reader, a writer, and a stranger in some cases. And that's not even all of my personalities. Obviously, I am one person with one body and one mind, but how often do we not tell everyone we know everything? How often do we not feel guilty about that? It's not bad and it's not even strange necessarily. We all do it. We just call it something else.
I picked that question today because I was standing in the hot shower and thinking what is my name? I have a given name. A real life, my parents gave it to me name. I like it, but I don't often use it on the internet, because it feels funny. On the internet, I carved my own persona as I was starting to waddle my way through puberty and into adulthood and upon that I came across roleplaying sites which are excellent for my writing as they give me what I need to be inspired. For a long time, I never really took a permanent name, I just lifted the first name off my character. Until I stumbled upon one that stuck, Nina. Now, this is kind of a diminutive of my actual name, but it became symbolic of my change. Because by choosing that name, I created something powerful. By literally, seperating myself into the virtual presence and then my real life, I compartmentalized and in the process started two separate but equally fulfilling personalities, having thoughts and dreams with one section of my life that sometimes did not mesh with the other part of my life. Still, it was all part of the entire me and in the end, I'm no closer to the answer than I am to solving cold fusion but at least I thought about it. Because some people don't even take the time to do that.
DFTBA darling,
Nina and Her BloggedLife <3
I took TFiOS really hard. Like punch in the stomach so hard that my lungs filled with air and were reminded that they liked the taste of air hard. And I can tell you, just like I told you in my reviews of TFiOS previously have stated because it made me think about my young life. How I've been blessed with the kind of miracle that some people never get, but indeed is a miracle that increased the number of my days, I just don't know to what capacity. It gave me a few more infinities. Now, how you deal with yourself and your life as a sick person and maybe especially as a sick child is important. Having epilepsy was certainly a strain on some of my childhood but it definitely wasn't the only thing that kept me in the hospital. And as someone who has had continual miracles with the ideals of modern medicine, it's so easy to imagine it going the other way.
I often get up thinking about how it could have gone the other way. I like being alive and I like wondering about my identity and often even crazier things than that, but let's face it, I've had a lot of miracles. To count just some of the many miracles, I survived childhood epilepsy, two cases of pneumonia in the third grade alone, and had my tonsils taken out when I was three or so because they were enlarged to the size of an eighteen year old male's. Those are just a few of my miracles. I mean where would I be if I didn't have the choices I have now? I mean I have to stay away from strobe lights because they make me dizzy and stuff and in general make the rest of me go funny. I also know something else could happen. I haven't had one in a really long time, but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of dying and reading has made me confront that.
And then there's the mental part which I was confronted with in Inside Joss's Dollhouse. I am one person. I have one body and in general one disposition at any given point. This is true enough. The question I ask myself though, because I often muse on it about other people is, am I many personalities? Now, I want to clarify, I have no issue with people with any kind of mental disorder, but I am not talking about one. I am not talking about multiple personalities. I am talking about many personalities. And often times when I ask this about myself the answer is simple, yes. But it's not that simple. Because if it were that simple, then it wouldn't be interesting and we all know the yes/no question is kind of a boring one. I often ask myself what these personalities are and who they bear to and how long I've had each and why I came up with them in the first place. These are all very interesting questions. And I bet many of you have kind of thought about this too. I am a daughter, a student, a tutor, a friend, a vlogger, a blogger, a reader, a writer, and a stranger in some cases. And that's not even all of my personalities. Obviously, I am one person with one body and one mind, but how often do we not tell everyone we know everything? How often do we not feel guilty about that? It's not bad and it's not even strange necessarily. We all do it. We just call it something else.
I picked that question today because I was standing in the hot shower and thinking what is my name? I have a given name. A real life, my parents gave it to me name. I like it, but I don't often use it on the internet, because it feels funny. On the internet, I carved my own persona as I was starting to waddle my way through puberty and into adulthood and upon that I came across roleplaying sites which are excellent for my writing as they give me what I need to be inspired. For a long time, I never really took a permanent name, I just lifted the first name off my character. Until I stumbled upon one that stuck, Nina. Now, this is kind of a diminutive of my actual name, but it became symbolic of my change. Because by choosing that name, I created something powerful. By literally, seperating myself into the virtual presence and then my real life, I compartmentalized and in the process started two separate but equally fulfilling personalities, having thoughts and dreams with one section of my life that sometimes did not mesh with the other part of my life. Still, it was all part of the entire me and in the end, I'm no closer to the answer than I am to solving cold fusion but at least I thought about it. Because some people don't even take the time to do that.
DFTBA darling,
Nina and Her BloggedLife <3
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