With my latest blog post about how i've been horribly procrastinating on my assignment which is do tomorrow, I've become a little more confident in things. I've done some beautiful work in the past twenty four hours, typing reviews and printing articles like a boss.
Honestly, I think I needed someone to be responsible to. I know it seems weird, but since I posted that blog I've had that feeling of "someone will be disappointed in me if I don't do this." and so I've done it. I knew I needed to do it before and I even knew that the deadline was tomorrow, I just didn't do it. Not until I really set myself up to do it. Which meant telling the entire world about what I haven't done yet. And yes, I'm a little bit ashamed of myself for having to stoop to that level, but it gave me the encouragement I needed.
Now, I've got twenty-five articles done with just five more to go to review. Compared to the fact that none were done before this week, I put that in the plus column. I can do things that I don't like to do, I just have to work harder at them and have the inspiration to do them. Which is why I love the internet sooo much. I pretty much live here and you guys are my roommates ready to call me out on not doing my shit. Because you won't take it. People want to see the best for me. And that's what I get just from writing these little BEDA blogs on the internet.
On a more positive note of schoolworthy things, I got my critique back from my professor in acting for my shakespeare monologue. Let me first preface this whole paragraph with the fact that I've known this man for three semesters and he makes me want to be better. I've always taken what he says to heart. I like his feedback, I think it's insightful. Most of all, I just respect him so much. He gave me the best review he's given me. And anything else just vanished. All the crap I dealt with during the day, it just went out into the universe because he cared about my work and liked it. And he's a teacher that I know wouldn't just blow smoke at me because he thinks it would make me feel better. He really is committed to seeing all of his actors do their best work.
School is one of those things I find so enamouring. I find the idea that I can learn so many new skill sets just a wonder. I want to learn as much as I possibly can and it makes me feel like the absolute best to be in a class with people who care. So far, I've been very lucky in that I've met people and had classes that I really truly cared about. There was one class that was hard and I didn't really care about, but it was the exception to the rule. I find that I might be the only person I know who shares that opinion of school. There is so much to explore and learn out there, why wouldn't you want to have that knowledge? With so many things to do, why not try them all?
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